Carving out our places

SO the second day didn't go as well as I thought...or did it? Hayden started off the day with a profound "I don't want to go to school today!" To Which I responded with a let's change the subject and hope this isn't really going to happen today comment, "That's nice what do want for breakfast?" Thankfully, school doesn't even start until 11:50. By the time we were supposed to be getting prepped to walk out the door he was off and running. This time all the way to school and right through the door. By Friday he was asking why we couldn't go to school on Saturdays. - So School is a hit.

I have noticed that school has brought on more changes than just a routine shift. Hayden now has become a "school boy!" This when defined by a 4 going on 5 year old means that he can now do just about everything by himself. pour his own cereal, make his own chicken nuggets - "DON'T tell me mom, I can do it - DON't help me mom - I know how" - it is quite amazing that sending your child for 3 hours a day to a building called school can suddenly make him so independent and full of "know how" -Now he wants to go places where I am going to leave him - "so you aren't staying right - I can be here alone?" - ALONE? - meaning in a room full of many other people but definitely without mom and tyler.

With all his new independence, Tyler and I are trying to figure out what to do with ourselves. As much as I want to be the "Hayden for Tyler" I am constantly reminded that I am not. I took him to the park after we dropped Hayden off for his 3rd day of school and Tyler. my park loving boy - just sat in the stroller and said - "I want to go home" I tried some gentle coaxing, "Let's swing! and I will play with you on the slides" - to which Tyler put his head down on the stroller and said,"there are no boys to play with, I want to go home"

I think it may take a while to discover exactly what our schedule will be. It is amazing to me how incorporating school into our lives has had such an affect on my normal - "Whatever, Whenever" look on our day. It sure makes Hayden happy - now if I could just figure out something to make Tyler excited!